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Dear Diary...
 
 
I know everyone has fears and maybe there are people out there that have some of the same fears I do. Sometimes I feel like I am totally alone though. My brain does a lot of racing throughout the day since I have Bipolar Disorder sometimes I can't shut a lot of it down. I have some of the most common fears, spiders, snakes, not being the best I can be, failing at something, but now I have a huge fear....my surgery!
 
 
I finally got the call the other day that I need to do is wait on insurance approval and then schedule my pre-op visit and then I will be well on my way to my surgery! Part of me can't wait, I can't wait to start this new chapter in my life, a healthy chapter. I can't wait to be able to do simple things like cross my legs like a lady, go shopping for clothes and not have to go to just certain departments. There are so many other little things that are going to be huge for me!
 
 
Fear, I fear the liver shrink diet, I fear that I will fail, I fear the pain of the surgery, I fear that I won't meet my goals!
 
 
I know that these fears are legit BUT I can't focus on them! I can't set myself up for failure! I have to set my mind to this and accomplish and go as far as I can! I know I can do it!
 
 
So can you...

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