My Eeny Weeny Blog

When I started this blog it was shortly after my gastric sleeve surgery. I blogged a long time before that running an extreme coupon blog and Facebook page. Between working and taking care of the kids I couldn’t keep up with the couponing blog. This blog was created to help people, eating better, exercise etc. It has now changed and shaped into just more than that. I share my own personal stories, struggles and I love to share recipes, DIY and more. As you all have noticed by now I am also sharing animals, Scentsy and so much more. I know I have an about section but let me take a minute to talk about me. I just turned 45 this year and for some reason I feel it. I have bone spurs in both my shoulders and knees, I have back pain that doesn’t stop along with tendinitis in both of my feet. I am now starting with severe ankle issues and my wrists are getting bad. My son has Ehlers Danlos, which I will be making posts about as well as most Dr’s have not heard of it. I intend on getting tes

So it’s been a while since I have blogged. I tried a few weeks ago but couldn’t keep up running around with a toddler. I can’t promise there will be posts every day but I will do my best. As far as that light at the end of the tunnel, I’d like to say I am doing better; I have to say that I am all over the map. There is a lot I have to tackle on a daily basis which makes my anxiety run sky high. My depression has been even with some ups and downs. My sleeping was getting better however I decided to take a late nap Thursday night. I slept from midnight to 4 in the morning so I could get up and clean in peace with nobody watching. I threw in my beats and did so much that I hurt in so many places. I’d love to say it’s all done but it’s never ending. The best part is I don’t think anyone appreciates all that I do which really dampers my mood. Because I took that late nap (mind you I was up at 4, I cleaned and ran errands till 2. I took 2 1 hour naps on Friday which didn’t cut it. I went to

So there was good news after I posted the First Light at the End of the Tunnel 🙏 I was put back onto my Latuda and my mood changed almost overnight. I have found joy in doing things again, I have found myself wanting to do things again. Your everyday tasks don’t bother me like they were. So it has been awesome! Yes, you probably hear a BUT coming and you’re right. I am still not sleeping well. Talked to the Dr. again today we switched to Ambien XR, I upped my Trazadone and my Seroquel so we shall see, hopefully I sleep longer and I am not a walking non functioning zombie all day 😅 gotta try and laugh a little bit from it all right? I will update when I know more, thanks to everyone for their support and love 🥰

What is sleep? I used to know, I am the girl that needs 8-9 hours of sleep and can't function without it. It doesn’t help that I take Trazadone, Seroquel, Remeron and Lunesta for my depression/bipolar and sleep! So tell me why I am only getting 2-4 hours of sleep a night? I have now been doing this for days and I don’t know how much longer I can deal? To those of you reading this post going this is a norm for me, I wish I could say that but I have nothing left in me! Getting horrible headaches, eyes are blurry and burning, brain fog is no joke! What happens during the day instead of cleaning, doing things I like etc; I take a few naps and OH those naps only last me an hour. So I wake up in the morning work on something simple to do (like blogging) lay down for an hour. Wake up, hang out with some of the family for a couple hours, lay back down for an hour and just repeat. I think this is the most frustrating thing I have ever felt being bipolar. Cory and I thought maybe one of my

  I have been away for far too long.😔 I use to wake up every day and work on all the posts for the day and then randomly post them on my FaceBook group for the blog. Ohhhh how I’ve missed this!! Now hopefully I can just keep up on it because there are even more changes coming as I noted in my last blog post. Depression and Anxiety can be a BITCH!!! That is actually an understatement. If you do not have it yourself or you don’t have a loved one that has it, then you can’t truly understand what that person is going through. I was diagnosed with Bipolar Type 2 when I was 15 years old. Later in life in my mid 30’s I also got diagnosed with anxiety and panic attacks and to top all that off I have lived with ADHD since I was in second grade. I have tried several times to get back into my blog and it doesn’t last long because of my depression, however the blog helps my depression so it’s more of a OK, you need to get up and do it. As I am sitting here typing this post up it is 6:38 am. I am

  I haven’t done a “Dear Diary” post in a while and I feel the need to today. I apologize that blog posts are just now going up. My old psychiatrist retired, which honestly I didn’t mind because I didn’t like her very much. I found a new one and of course have been going through medication changes. I don’t want to complain too much because with the medication change I have found the drive to want to do more, I haven’t felt as depressed (don’t get me wrong I still have my moments or days). Being bipolar even with medicine that works you’re never completely okay BUT there has been a good shift in moods. Lately though I have been dealing with the anxiety part which I believe stems from not sleeping well. I have turned into a very old lady. I am lucky if I make it to 9;00 at night. Honestly by 6 I am watching the clock begging my body to make it till 9 and I rise early. The downfall is I am tired all day. So there is so much I want to do now that I don’t feel as depressed but I am trapped

Effexor, Seroquel, Latuda, Caplyta, Prozac, Cymbalta, Lexapro, Xanax and Valium; those are just some names of medications you may not know of or what they are for. If you do then you understand what a lot of people feel. Depression, overwhelming sadness, anxiety, hopelessness and more. I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder and 15, as years have gone by I also suffer from anxiety attacks. I hit a deep low in February. During the time of the low our psychiatrist retired (which was fine I didn't really like her). We have found a new one! The new Dr. I am still up in arms about. I like that they don't believe in over medicating. I like that they are all about alternative healing and natural supplements on top of needed medication though! During this low I had no drive, no motivation, no feelings other than being depressed and feeling extremely overwhelmed! Hence why you haven't seen blog posts from me in forever. I've stated before that I love to blog, which I do but when y

Let's face it, covid is still messing up our lives in one way or the other. I don't think it's going anywhere at this point BUT we can't let it define us or ruin our lives anymore!!! 2022 has got to be better than the last couple of years right? I don't do resolutions anymore but I do have goals set up for myself. I have started back to the gym. I did take the week of Christmas off but plan to take advantage of any day that I can go pending working around watching my granddaughter. In addition to making sure I am getting to the gym, I am done smoking!!! New Year's Eve is my last day. The hubs and I decided that will be it. Why am I choosing that day? Well I know I will be drinking if I drink. I want to smoke.  I have struggled with smoking for 28 years! I can't believe it's been that many years. I have quit numerous times but it never sticks, a trigger always happens. I am not technically quitting. I am going to be vaping. The goal is to eventually quit

You may be wondering why the title of this blog post is rhythm and blues? Well it has nothing to do with jazz! It’s all about trying to find a rhythm in life; right now it has been difficult for me, how are you doing? You guys know I have bipolar disorder in association with ADHD and I think I have come to realize I have a small touch of OCD. Now you throw in the seasonal depression and BAM! Honestly the blues started a while ago over numerous reasons and now with the cold and the dark here it’s making it even harder. I don’t want to complain though…. So enough with the blues, let's talk about the rhythm. I used to have a good rhythm about 4 years ago. I got up, drank some coffee and headed to the gym. I haven’t been in that rhythm for a long time now. I want to start a new rhythm, maybe not jumping out of bed and going straight to the gym but definitely need the gym. Over the last couple weeks I started going to a yoga class that I love and I also did a water aerobics class wh