What is sleep?

What is sleep? I used to know, I am the girl that needs 8-9 hours of

sleep and can't function without it. It doesn’t help that I take Trazadone, Seroquel,

Remeron and Lunesta for my depression/bipolar and sleep!

So tell me why I am only getting 2-4 hours of sleep a night? I have now been

doing this for days and I don’t know how much longer I can deal?

To those of you reading this post going this is a norm for me, I wish I

could say that but I have nothing left in me!

Getting horrible headaches, eyes are blurry and burning, brain fog is no joke!

What happens during the day instead of cleaning, doing things I like etc; I take a few

naps and OH those naps only last me an hour.

So I wake up in the morning work on something simple to do (like blogging)

lay down for an hour. Wake up, hang out with some of the family

for a couple hours, lay back down for an hour and just repeat.

I think this is the most frustrating thing I have ever felt being bipolar.

Cory and I thought maybe one of my newer pills (which I have taken in the past at night)

was doing it. So yesterday I woke up in the morning

and took that pill and yep I still didn’t sleep!

The picture for the blog is the Fukitol pill, that is something

I wish they actually made 😆🤣 I mean my pills are pretty good

at keeping my depression and anxiety in check but because of

this lack of sleep I am constantly jumping down people's throats,

crying behind closed doors and just all around miserable.

I just tried to call my psychiatrist at 8, apparently they aren’t open at 8.

I will be trying again at 9 and see if there is anything else we can try

because if I continue down this road I will definitely not be able to

function anymore, not to mention I am wasting my days away by taking naps.

Stay tuned for an update.