Dear Diary...
It has now been 10 years since my mom passed away. Every year it just shocks me that it has been so long since I last talked to her! There is not a day that goes by that I don't think of you mom, or that I want to call you and tell you what the boys are up to, or call you and cry because something is wrong! You were my best friend, the one I could count on no matter what and you were taken from me way to early!
There is still no cure for the LAM Disease, I still get the mailings and at the end there is always a section of who has been lost, it pains me to see so many women passing away from a disease that has no cure, no real medicine to treat & that some women live with this disease and are never truly diagnosed!
CJ misses you terribly, he asks questions about you all the time, he remembers that you gave him your Lamb Chop, that is all he remembers though. He asks what you were like, how you sounded, what you liked too do. I wish you could see him now! I wish you could see all your grandkids, a part of me knows that you are looking and watching them from heaven but it's still not the same!
Dad lives up here now, I get to see him every day, it's so nice having him close, I wish you both could be here, I know how happy you would be to live so close to the kids. Dad enjoys getting to spend time with CJ he comes over once a week and I cook for him. Austin lives right across from him and Lane is in college!
11 years and my eyes are still swelling as I write this, 10 years without hearing your voice, without getting a hug, without hearing you say "it will be okay" you have no clue how many times I wish I could hear you say that! I love you mom & miss you today as much as I did at that moment that I got the call saying you were gone.
Love you mom,
Susan
Blessings to you
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